My gram passed away!

My gram died. I am really sad, ofcourse, but even worse was watching her shut down. she had her mind until the end, it was her body. She would breath only 3 times a minute while in a comotose state but her throat still pulsed. Her breaths were deep and raspy, the death rattle I guess they call it. I miss her so much, and the fact that logan will only know how great gram was from me and not expereince her more. That being said, I think that how logan is now and is to become is influenced by every experience.

:)

napping

So sorry I havent been on for a while. It seems that when Jeff is home we spend time together instead of me hanging solo when logan goes to bed. Lets start off with the most wonderful thing in the whole world napping. The only thing better then a nap is a nap with Logan. We snoozed after work for 2 glorious hours. He then didnt go to bed until 9 30 tonight but it was SOOOO worth it. After I put on his diaper and PJs he grabbed his blanket and sippy and ran into my room and tugged on the bed to get up. When Jeff isnt home Im pretty relaxed about him sleeping with me but only when he wakes up through the night. I did let him lay down with me though, im such a softy, and moved him into his bed when he was asleep.

Logan is starting to say all kids of words. His latest is "bird" which he pronounces buuurd. It is so cute. He also says mama of course :), dada, cheese, boo, no, ouch ouch ouch. LOL he says ouch and puts his finger between a crack. haha he is cute. He also repeats words that Im not sure if he knows how to say or repeats so well "sit down" and "bye bye".

Well bedtime myself!

slacker

Logan laughing at Grammy during a trip to the wild life park


I am a real slacker when it comes to blogging when Jeff is home. I think its because I actually spend adult time together after logan goes to bed. We had a bet that Fathers day was this sunday and I was wrong. I bet $100 on it, and jeff wants to cash it in. If I do double or nothing and loose that is $200 down the tubes LOL. We had a fabulous weekend filled with trips to the park, staining our deck and even a date night (dinner and a movie). It was a great weekend with lots of sun. In a couple of weeks I go to Ottawa and mom and Logan are coming with me (Jeff is back to work). I am excited. When I went to NFLD without Logan it was very sad. Every one thinks it is a vacation but I dont. Its hard to leave your little baby. He misses his mama and probably more i miss him. Maybe i will feel differently if we are lucky enough to have more kids and they are older. Logan actually said "thank you" clear as day at Jeffs uncles house. It was so darn cute- I think I have the best baby ever!

random thought

I just can't imagine letting my baby cry for hours to teach him to sleep at night. Some people can do it, and all the power to them, but not this Mama. I vow to pick my baby up and cuddle him any time he needs it any hour of the night :)

hungry caterpiller

I'm in a good mood but it seems like people are cranky around me and to me. What-evs I will keep being happy :)

This morning was so cute. We didn't have enough time for high chair breakfast so I take an English muffin to go, and so does Logan. BUT Logan really wanted a sit down breakfast and kept trying to climb up his high chair and pointing at it yelling. Then he dragged the chair over to me trying to butter our muffins. LOL. Poor guy must have been starving (as always)

Johnny Miles resurected

So I haven't been running after work for a because the weather has been crappy, I have been too tired after working out during the day I just want to play, and I bought a bike trailer for Logan so we tend to bike around. Today is the bluenose marathon and I have some friends running. One of them has a baby 6 months younger then Logan and she is running a 5k. She is always so inspiring - one of the nicest people I know, who has stood up for me when I felt like I was alone. She is so fantastic -shout out to my bud http://angiealltheway.blogspot.com/ and also Megs who finished a half maraton in a fantastic time-she rocks!!!So I am re inspired and my goal of the Johnny miles 5km in one month. Today my mom has Logan so I went for a run. I thought i was doing awesome almost ran the whole 3km came back and looked i was 25 mins. I remember running 5km at 29mins but I think that is unrealistic for me now. My new goal is 5km in 35 mins pushing Logan. I have one month. Wish me luck!!!

oh the guilt!

I was really looking forward to a trip to NFLD with work. I was going to go to the meeting then meet hubby and son in Gros Morne (which i always wanted to visit) but it just didnt work out. So I am going away for 2 nights /3 days with Logan home. I also feel horrible because Jeff comes home Friday and then I leave Monday. Logan isnt confortable with him totally because he doesnt see him ofton. I think Logan is going to be super stressed out which stresses me out. Logan loves routine and Jeff wants to keep him home instead of going to the sitters. Poor Logan.

He is a super happy little one- I love him so!